Thursday, January 05, 2006

the apathy

I miss the
The absence of pain was

A world without

or a submersion in

A life full of
or a dream without

My hunger for those
or the numbness of my

Her breath filling my
or my heart failing to

The presence of pain is
I miss the

Tuesday, October 25, 2005


i'm in love with a dream
or so it would seem
how can i catch the light?
or trap the moon at night?
like the warmth of the beach
or the clouds out of reach
just like the brightest star
you're so close but too far
i know nothing lasts forever
but i can pretend when we're together

Sunday, September 11, 2005


Today marks the fourth anniversary
The world's leader became the adversary

Blessed are the rich as long as they're white
Blessed are those who rule with might
Damned are those with the dark skins
Whether in Baghdad or New Orleans
Cursed are those who own the least
They learn the true nature of this beast

Take a vacation while a city dies
Insult them with your presence and lies
Send more of our poor to die in their sand
So you can steal what is below their land
You swore mass death and gave us terror
But history will prove you were the error


1895 American soldiers
3121 Iraqi police/guardsman
24865 Iriaqi civilians (conservative estimate)

So much blood is on this administration's hands.
History will show this to be the most shameful period of American history and perhaps the decline of the American Empire.
Threats are growing on the other side of both oceans, and we have no more friends in the world
I love my country with all my heart. But I am ashamed of those in charge.
I know I am blessed to be in a country where I can speak openly. And I am going to use this right.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

the safety of shadows

The darkness is my home
I try to explore and roam
but it pulls me back alone

I try again to find some light
I show the look but I don't feel right
because inside dwells a yearning for night

I seek the black that brings despair
and avoid the white it's too much to bear
the burden too heavy for time to repair

So I block the doors and lock the windows
and I stay inside where nobody knows
the comfort I find in the safety of shadows

Saturday, August 20, 2005

the other way around

Why don't we make-believe
that I give the love that you receive
and I make you smile when you get down...
instead of the other way around

Why don't we play pretend
that I'm so much more than just a friend-
the perfect one that you have found...
instead of the other way around

Why don't we play a little game
that you love me and I feel the same
and my name to you is the sweetest sound...
instead of the other way around

Why don't we live my fantasy-
it's me and you in harmony
where your love for me knows no bounds...
instead of the other way around

Saturday, February 12, 2005

just friends

I dream of her pleasure
but only share in her pain
I yearn for warm days
but endure months of rain

She's the sun of my world
I'm just a star in hers
A distant little speck
lost in her universe

The presence of my mind
and the beat of my heart
Love hurts the most when
it ends with no start

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

long time no sea

it has been quite a while since i have written anything. i am sick. i don't really have anything to say, but i figured i ought to make use of this, and it's been like, six weeks or something like that since i've written anything new. i will sleep early, because i had a long day and because i have things to do.
i miss the beach. even though i'm in sunny southern california, yeah, it gets cold. and it's been cold lately and i'll become a popsickle should i choose to go into the ocean. and besides, it's not like i can work on my tan or anything.
i feel like crap. i'm gonna stop writing, because i can tell that you are bored and i need my rest. ny nyquil is wearing on me and my lids are getting heavy. have you ever taken nyquil and whisky? it's a bad idea. unless you don't mind slipping into a mild coma for 16 hours. it will rest you right up though.